.:: life goes on ::.
time - 4.15 a.m.
location - big sis’ fat’s room
currently doing - calculus =________="
i’m so caught up with life now..finalz r kambing n i know nutz bout it -> calculus, electric circuits, transistors, diodes, integration, differentiation.. it’s driving me nutz… well, not that bad yet.. hopefully i will survive.. short sem is crazee.. imagine havin only 2 subjects, but it can drive u crazee..
before
kambing back to college for 2nd sem, i told myself, this sem should be
easy…hell yeah!! only 2 subjects!! mathz n electric circuits.. both
my strong subjects.. well, it shud be okay.. but no.. i wuz wrong.. short sem can KILL
you.. imagine studying a subject where other people take 3 months to
study it, while i have to cramp 3 months of work into my head in juz 7
weeks.. other than that, our prom nite distracted me from my studies.. wrong
timing.. totally wrong.. i messed + screwed up.. wuz too caught up wid
prom until i nearly neglected my studies *tsktsk* =(
but luckily, it is over now.. currently on study break.. where u r SUPPOSE to study..hee!! guess what have i been doin so far? other than studying that is…
wake up girl!! finalz r like only a week away!! u can’t afford to screw
up this time… u screw up juz once, n u can say bye bye to ur future..
which top universities will accept only an average student? n i’m not
juz average.. i expect alot from myself.. after 2 years from now, after
my diploma that is, i will be pursuing my studies in one of the best
universities in the UK, Australia or maybe US..
my dream is to study in Australia.. since i wuz a lil’ kid.. but to
think bout it.. UK will be a better world for engineering students..
maybe perhaps after achieving my degree, i would apply for a job in UK,
if there is a chance.. On the other hand, studying in Australia, if my
grades r miraculously good.. i might be able to pursue my masters there
too.. as my lecturer told me, Australia does offer masters’ in top
universities straight away if ur diploma is REALLY good.. that will
lead me one step ahead of others, i’l be skipping 2 years of studies,
the entire degree course.. well, cross my fingers n hopefully my very
best is good enough to catch the attention.. n of coz, i will be in
Australia after masters.. working, perhaps. Lastly, the US, of coz, i’m
considering it, if i do get into the prestigious universities there,
then y not? as i know, US does not recognise diploma holders, hopefully
luck will stand by me if i do decide to go to the US.
who
knowz what will happen in the future? for now, all i know is, if i do
go overseas, y do i have to come back right after? if i can experience
working life there.. wouldn’t it be a benefit? God knowz whtr i might
be kambing back to Malaysia again nex time.. imagine leaving ur family
here in Malaysia, i don’t know whtr i can accept that fact.. but if u
wanna strive for success, u have to take risks n sacrifices.. datz what i hate bout life, making decisions.. one wrong turn n ur lost.. it’ll take forever juz to find ur way back..
all
i know now is, i know what i want n i will do whatever it takes me juz
to get it.. these r my main priorities now, i’m very sorry to the sides
which i once cared for.. life does not turn out to be the way we want
it to be sometimes.. the heart changes as life goes on..
and sometimes, the ‘people’ in this picture, might be you yourself.
as much as i don’t wanna leave this place, sometimes, things don’t go the way we want it to be.
i’m just goin to do what’s best for myself.
